Tuesday, 11 December 2012

This Day Brought To You by the Number 6

Oh my gosh.

My little man is 6 today.

He is still the smartest, funniest, most awesome little boy in the whole world.

Here he is at his Christmas concert last night.  So handsome.

As I was reading over all the posts for Logan's 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th and 5th birthdays (I have had this blog for a long time!) I noticed that I've never really posted his birth story on here.  What?

So here we go:

I had just graduated with an Arts degree from the University of Manitoba in 2003. I had been dating Terry since 2000.  I was thinking that I might go in Law School, but first I needed to pay down some of the students loans I racked for the past 4 years. 

I went to my yearly check up with my cardiologist and he noticed that I had just graduated.  I was also doing really well health-wise.  He asked if I wanted to have kids.  I was a little surprised.  Having kids was something that I had kind of convinced myself that I wouldn't be able to do.  He informed me that if I had a baby soon, I might just be able to pull it off.

I went home and told Terry.  We thought and thought about it.  It was a little early in our plans to be having kids.  But this might be our only opening to have kids.

I met with my family doctor and told her the news.  She referred me to the most awesome high risk obstetrician ever - Dr. Carol Schneider.

We met with the high risk doctor to see if she would this challenge on.  She was more than enthusiastic to help us and gave us the go ahead to start trying.

So we tried... and tried... and tried...

Not that it wasn't fun, but we were getting pretty stressed out. Almost 2 years went by.  Things were becoming dire.  My window was closing and fertility aids were out of the question.  It's difficult enough to have a baby with a heart condition, but the risk of having more than one baby was definitely too dangerous.

I admit - at this point, I lost hope and needed to run away for awhile. Terry and I separated and I moved back to Alberta for 5 months.

Realizing almost immediately that running away was a horrible idea and that Terry and I were soul mates who needed each other kids or no, I moved back.

Two months after moving back, after relaxing and accepting our fate - I became pregnant.


The pregnancy was easy. I had gestational diabetes (so no Slurpees - ACK!) and I had high blood pressure right at the end.  But Dr. Schneider was with us through the whole thing.  On December 11th, 2006 I went in for a now weekly check-up and the doctor informed me that she didn't like where my blood pressure was going.  I already was going to put enormous pressure on my heart during labour, I didn't need high blood pressure on top of that.

So she sent me upstairs. My water was broken at 5:00 pm.  I went into labour at 6:00 pm and had Logan in my arms at 10:10 pm. I had him completely natural without drugs.  I blew out my pulmonary valve completely that day but it was totally worth it!

And it turns out that you don't really need a pulmonary valve to have a baby anyway. Because as you know, at my next check up, my cardiologist looked at the results of my tests and gave us permission to have another one. :D

So Logan is the baby I thought I would never have, but really really wanted.

And I'll end the story there because I'm crying too much to see the keyboard.

I love you so much little man!

Happy 6th Birthday Logan!!!


Periwinkle Dzyns said...

To love your child is the greatest gift you can give them :)
Happy Holidays to one of my heroes!

PrairiePeasant said...

Tawny, thanks for sharing your amazing story! Logan will always treasure this too, knowing how much he was hoped for before he was born. Off to wipe my eyes too....

Sarah said...

Wow, thanks for sharing such a beautiful story with us!