Saturday, 17 September 2011

It's Time! Dammit!

Once upon a time there was a girl...

She was a hot girl....


March 2006 (150 lbs)

She was a 150 lb girl....

She was destined to be a mommy...

July 2006 (155 lbs)
She was still pretty thin and hot while carrying her first baby....

March 2007 (150 lbs)
The baby was born and she hadn't gained that much weight...

But things started to get tougher...

Babies are difficult to raise....

The girl liked to eat Oreos while the baby was napping...

The Oreos made everything feel better...

She didn't worry as much about screwing up motherhood while she was eating Oreos....

November 2008 (160 lbs)


The girl started not to care as much about being a hot mama...

She just wanted to survive...

Then she got pregnant again...

May 2009 (170 lbs)

This pregnancy wasn't as easy...

Fruit Loops and cheese slices all the way for this baby...

And then the baby was born...

The girl had thought that having the first one was rough...

She had no idea...

Add postpartum depression into the mix...

October 2009 (175 lbs)
The girl didn't have any confidence left...

Not an ounce of strength left to worry about how she looked...

July 2010 (175 lbs)

The girl even had to go through her own wedding being chubby...

It was mortifying...

The girl still cries over this one...

But there wasn't time or energy to do anything about it...

The girl's heart was losing strength and needed to be fixed...

March 2011 (176 lbs)

But now the girl has had enough...

Her heart is fixed and she has more energy...

One baby has started Kindergarten and she hasn't had any symptoms of sadness for months...

It's time...

So, why am I confessing all of this stuff?  Because I need my readers to keep me honest.

I've begun the good old fashioned calorie count on Everyday Health.  I started on Monday morning - weighing in at 174 lbs.  In order to lose 1 lb a week, my calorie count for the day cannot exceed 1694.  So far I've been cutting out a lot!  I've kept under the calorie count all week.

But today is Saturday...

No beer and no spinach dip Saturday...

Yipes!

Did you know that a Pepsi Slurpee is 195 calories?  I do!  Brutal!

My plan is to work on keeping within my calorie count each day and once I feel better about this, I'll work on getting rid of unhealthy choices like Slurpees and Diet Pepsi.  Right now the only thing saving me is that Diet Pepsi is 0 calories.  Of course it's not good for me.  I'll work on that...

I just can't go on anymore the way I've been going.  I can't eat a bag of chips every time it's been a rough day and I finally fight the kids to sleep.  I can't eat 10 cookies whenever Lane has a tantrum and I want to drown my frustrations.  I can't drink 3 beers just because it's Saturday night and I want to. 

So after 5 days working the calorie counting, how am I doing?  I kept within my goal every single day.  And I exercised 4 out of 5 days.

I'm down 1 lb.  Yeah... not really a good indication. I'll keep you updated.

If you've gotten this far in my long winded. slightly boring confession, good for you!  I just needed to write it all down to remind myself of why I'm going this crazy route.  Those photos are a wake up call if I ever did see one!

There are a few brave ladies that have inspired me to share my journey with you:

Nenette over at Life Candy who successfully completed the Minimize Yo Butt challenge and has been keeping all of us updating about her weight loss journey in her Rebuilding the Temple posts. 

And Kyla at the Funky Polkadot Giraffe who has been struggling and succeeding with the Nutri-System plan. (and this post is loosely based on her beautiful first post before beginning her weight loss challenge).

Give me strength!  It's time! Dammit!

(my weight loss goal in case you're wondering is 24 lbs - to get back to my comfortable and cute 150 lb self).

4 comments:

Kristie said...

It is time for me, too. I want to lose almost the same amount, to end up at the same final weight as you do! Maybe you will spur me into action?!?!?

Jennie said...

I'm sad to hear you struggled silently with PPD. I do think you looked gorgeous and happy at your wedding.

Good luck with the weight loss. There's a lot of sensible, healthy options out there, so I'm certain you'll find something that works for you. Hopefully something that includes a treat on Saturday nights!

My Amy's nearly a year old, and I still haven't started the exercise routine I'd planned. My hubby sabotages every resolution I have to stop eating junk food (usually just cookies or ice cream in the evenings). Every time I feel my squidgy stomach I regret not starting sit-ups nine months ago!

Steph said...

Sending you huge hugs, Tawny. Your post was so touching and honest. I thought you looked beautiful on your wedding day, really. And I've said this before but I am amazed at how strong you have been with your heart condition and you are even stronger to me, having battled PPD. And now you are striving to make yourself even better! You may not think so, but you inspire me!! Best wishes to you!!!

Tracy said...

I started Weight Watchers (which included online tools as well as meetings)on 9/9/11. I'd lost 6lbs so far. Yay! I have a whole lot more to lose than you though. But I'm here for you if you need me. :)